I teach this shit, I didn't say I know how to do it.

You ever find yourself doing something because you think you should be doing it? But then realize, wait, what the fuck, I don't have to like this because I should. Make sense?

For instance I work on "Wall Street". Not actually on the block of Wall St. but for a prominent firm in the Financial Services Industry. I consider myself to have above average knowledge on a bunch of financial topics within my industry. Yet I find myself, at times, reading up on things I normally wouldn't all because I think I should. As I was just perusing Bloomberg.com I came to the realization that I don't have to click and read an article for the sake of "because I work in the financial industry", I should click and read it if I want to. And that should be my only reason. You don't know how many times I get asked, "what did the market do today?". I'm like oh it was up or it was down, not knowing if that's the case. Because I don't give a shit most of the time. The market being up or down DOES effect my job to a degree but I don't always know what it's doing because sometimes I'm just not interested in it. If your an IT guy do you subscribe to PC Magazine? Do you know about all the updates that come out? Or do you just try and keep up enough to get along? If your a cook, do you go home and watch the Food Network?

On the weekends I don't even read the newspaper. I don't wanna know shit on the weekend. No news, no politics, no financial shows, nothing. Give me my sports, my beer, my steak and where is the fucking sun. That's all I care about when I'm at home. Because enjoying yourself is sometimes hard for people. I noticed that in some people. Ever see a guy at a BBQ or even a family function and they have a look on their face like they just shit themselves or saw Angela Lansbury get fucked by a Arabian horse? That person doesn't know how to enjoy him/herself. All they are thinking about is leaving that social function to watch CNN or going home to shove 3 more sticks up their ass. Maybe I'm defining a pessimist. I don't know, I'm not a psychologist.

In short, work sucks, leave it at work and enjoy yourselves every minute outside of it.

Wait I'm not done. I've decided that I don't want to do this shit forever. I need to open my own business, specifically a restaurant. I know it's a pipe dream but all I ever hear from people who have made it say the same thing, "don't ever stop chasing your dream", "you can do it" blah blah blah. Is it bullshit? Of course it is. I got mouths to feed yo. So my plan is this. Make enough money, gain enough skill in the industry I am in (cuz lord knows the money is there) and milk it. When your 35 (still young enough for a career change) assess your life. If you still want to make it happen. Grab your balls and do it. The wife, she'll be on board cuz you'll have some escarole in the bank for shoes and shit. Listen if it doesn't work out then it doesn't work out. Make a ton of money doing what you do now and retire early so you can fuck off the rest of your life.